I do not like Independence Day. But not because I am un-American, it’s because I am un-fireworks.
I do not have a problem with loud noises. I love to hear the rolling thunder. I love to go to the shooting range. But I do not like the damage fireworks can cause. Emotionally and physically.
My husband (rest his soul) told me once of an incident that not only un-nerved him but made him feel foolish. It was not long after he had been honorably discharged from the USMC. He was walking down the sidewalk, heading for a meal at a café he liked to frequent. A vehicle innocently backfired. He dove for cover by leaping over a fence. PTSD is a terrible thing to live with. And, while he loved the rolling thunder and the firing range just as much as I did, you could tell as July 4th came closer that his nerves would start to fray…and so would mine. But not for the same reasons.
While he knew the loud bag of a firearm would happen, as he was the one pulling the trigger. He did not know when the loud crack of fireworks would happen. He was not in control of the situation. We did not allow fireworks on our property. But that did not stop the neighboring farms from setting them off (even illegal ones like roman candles). I find it interesting that the way we celebrate our nation’s freedom can be living hell for some of those that fought for our freedom.
How does the 4th affect me? I know that on the 4th, dogs will die and things will burn. People will not secure their dogs. Dogs will escape and get injured or killed by vehicles and other things. People do not pay attention to where they are sending fireworks and things catch on fire. I learned a long time ago to pretty much just stay home not only on the 4th, but also on the 5th because of what I will see laying in or alongside the roads. I have a different kind of PTSD. It is not from the military. But it bothers me just the same. And the 4th really brings it home because I fear for the aftermath.
I am sure that allot of you understand where I am coming from. But I feel compelled write this.
How do you feel about fireworks?